This is what happened when u have nothing to do

I have been an NBA maniac since I was 11. I still remember the day that was. It was the week when my dad installed the old Mega TV in our home. I woke up early in the morning and changed the channel to ESPN and what do u know..the NBA was on air live!! I was pretty hyped because it would be the first NBA game I ever gonna watch. Ive heard about the great Micheal Jordan but never really got any details into it so to see him live was exciting as hell. I still remember the game..the Bulls vs the Suns..Jordan scored 33pts..Barkley got 36..and Phoenix won 102-96. That day was the start of an amazing NBA journey for me. For a few years after that, I woke up early every Saturday, even sometime skipped school on Friday just to catch the game live. Thinking back, Ive spent countless hours in the internet just to study the game, to know all about the best players and teams..and finally got into the game myself. Back in the day it was very hard to find a basketball court around my neighborhood. I end up asking (forcing really) my mom to take me into a club at Melawati just to play basketball. Heh..the picture of me and my brother slugging with those Chinese framed still in my mind. Me and my brother were like aliens there. We knew nobody but our determination and passion for the game overcame everything (poyo ehhh...!!!). Nowadays, if u come to a court without knowing anybody, u have to be darn good to play ball. That wasnt the case years ago. Anybody can play although the priority goes to the person with a basketball...and a pair of nike shoes hehe..

For me, Micheal Jordan is the best basketball player ever. Ive been into basketball for 13 years now and nobody even come close to do what he had done. I fell in love with him the first day I saw him. That beautiful fadeway jump shot, arcing high into the net, those twist and turn in the air, THAT dunk, all of those buzzer beaters..it was like in basketball haven. I couldnt believe it when I saw the news that 'His Airness' will leave the game forever by then end of the 97/98 season. He was simply the greatest basketball player ever graced the court bar none. He had won everything basketball have to offer..olympic gold medal, NBA titles, MVP, defensive player of the year, NBA first team..everything. Its very rare today to see a player as complete as he was. His will to win was extraordinary. I have lost count 0n how many legendary game Jordan have performed in his career. There were too many great moments. Nobody will ever provide the fans with such exhiliration and excitement. Truly Mike, the basketball world really have missed ur magic.

128!!

128 days left before I become Miss Azliana husband. *wink :)

I spent the last 6 years of my life in love with this woman. This person made my last 6 years worth every second. She was there when I was down, she was there when I was way above my head, and she never ever failed to show up whenever I needed her the most. For these reasons, I chose her to be my soul person for the rest of my life :)

Hoping from the day 129 and after my life shall be happily ever after!!

For my babe, Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me

Its hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
Theres no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
Well leave the world outside
All Ive got to give to you
Are these five words when i


Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
For parting my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The skys a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, youd make believe
That you believed my lies


Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
For parting my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me


Lock the doors
Well leave the world outside
All Ive got to give to you
Are these five words when i


Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
You parted my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldnt fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

Stuck in the moment

For my fiancee who always complain and whine about everything..this song is for you :)

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
'Cause tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

You are such a fool
To worry like you do.. Oh
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh lord look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you cant gt out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

Angels vs Demons!!

Im sick and tired of trying to finish reading 'Angels and Demons'. The storyline is so engaging that u cant even take a dump without thinking about what would happen next. Whats the next clue? wheres the damn sculpture? Who the hell is Janus? And when the hell will Robert Langdon and Vittoria Vetra 'do it'? (We all know its gonna happen rite?)

So i woke up this morning and decided to take a break of 'Angels and Demons'. Maybe ill continue with my Vatican City adventure after the weekend is over. I think I can do with a few days without feeling the stupidity of those Christians. I mean how dumb can some people be? Dan Brown is blatantly crushing your faith and he gets away with it? He is even gonna make a movie out of it! If Osman Awang ever do that to Islam trust me hell never get out of his house alive!!

Take ur damn chance damn it. U only got 3 months left

Watching Diaby in CM was like seeing Shukor Adan running hopelessly around the Selangor midfield. He was so bad I switched the channel every time he received the football. The thing thats so obvious about him was how slow he was releasing the football. Its not like Zidane slow (well Zizou feet and football was like missionary position, stick and never get away), its like someone I mentioned above who just doesnt know what to do with the ball. It took him forever to figure out what the best option available and when he tried to dribble his way out of trouble he would always end up loosing the football. When he first arrived at Arsenal I admit it myself that this guy was something else. He got the longest stride ive seen since Henry and Vieira and a great build for someone of his age. But somehow along the road he never grow into the player that I thought he can be. Now Cesc is injured, and he has been given the chance to show how good a midfielder he is. Sadly, he lasted only 60 minutes against Bolton and was replaced by young Vela. Damn it Abou. You are supposed to be our next Vieira. At least come close. You are not even a quarter of Vieira right now. Watching you got outmuscled by Muamba was sickening man. Hes as big as you, and u didnt ever look like u can beat him to the ball. U should thank the manager for showing big faith in you. U can only get this kind of oppurtunity here at Arsenal boy. U better realise that before Cesc comes back. U got 3 months.

On the positive note, we did win on Saturday. Van Persie was great. For a couple of months now he has been our best player. He looked very determine to prove all those critics about Arsenal wrong. His movement off the ball has improved, and his technic is just Bergkampesque. Well not truly like Bergkamp but almost there. We need him fit if we want to achieve something this season.

Calo.

Kite by U2

U might never heard of this song. Its not d kind of song played by Era or Hot and all of those "mainstream" Malaysian radio stations. Its not listed in any top 100 songs chart anywhere. BUt this song left a deep feeling inside me. It keeps motivating me on keep striving hard and letting go something eventho its very hard for me to do so. So here it goes. I dont know how to put songs here so i just put the lyrics for u guys to enjoy. Cherish ur life and keep on going!!

Something is about to give
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it is
I'm not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to live
And when I'm flat on my back
I hope to feel like I did

And hardness, it sets in
You need some protection
The thinner the skin

I want you to know
That you don't need me anymore
I want you to know
You don't need anyone
Or anything at all

Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know, which way the wind will blow

Who's to know when the time has come around?
Don't want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

It's summer, I can taste the salt of the sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on the breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me...

I'm a man, I'm not a child...
A man who sees
The shadow behind your eyes

Who's to say where the wind will take you?
Who's to say what it is will break you?
I don't know, where the wind will blow

Who's to know when the time has come around?
I don't want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

Did I waste it?
Not so much I couldn't taste it
Life should be fragrant
Rooftop to the basement

The last of the rock stars
When hip hop drove the big cars
In the time when new media
Was the big idea

That was the big idea

2008----2009

Ahhhh..another year has passed by. Well for me 2008 was decent. Not too bad, and not too shabby either. There were some great moments, and there were those that would make u wanna invent a time machine so u can go back in time to change everything.

Lets see..where do I start eh? Well After 5 and a half years putting my pride and future on the line, I managed to finish my studies and graduated officially in March. Ive learned a lot during those struggling study years. Personally, all those time spent away in the southern state really thaught me on how to really take care of myself and become a real man. Ive learned about what kind of peaople exist in this pitiful little world, which ones to trust and which one not to. All those mamaking, cybercafe-ing, oversleeping, and other time wasting activites which consumed most of my time really do have their worth for my future life. Yeah I could have done better with my results, but like they said shit happens. Theres no use to think about those times that I should have used for studying rather than doing other stuff. To regret is just a waste of time. Rite now Ive got myself an ok-ish job, which pay me enough so I can continue living the life I wanted to. And also, I got engaged to my love of 6 yrs. Finally. Sigh.

I cant stop thinking about the future that gonna come upon me in this coming year. Frankly, Im totally freaked out whenever I give my thought about it. Im afraid. Im afraid that I cant be the person that i always wanted to be. Im afraid that I cant achieve the things that I wanted. Ive set the bar really high this year. Lots to do, lots to achieve. Ive promised my self all those years back that one day Im gonaa leave all part of my dark side out of my life. And I really think this year is the year that Im supposed to fulfill that promise. Its a very heavy burden Im carrying here. I believe this year is my last chance to do something bout it. Ive had enough. I want to change. I need to change. Ive tainted my heart black enough and the time has come for me to start cleaning it.

So here it goes..my resolutions for 2009..

TO BE THE BEST MUSLIM THAT I CAN EVER BE.
-PERFORM MY PRAYERS BETTER, READ QURAN REGULARLY, SPEND MORE TIME AT THE MOSQUE, BECOME A RESPONSIBLE HUSBAND-

In the nama of ALLAh, I promise I would do all that I can to fulfill the above matter. I pledge myself to YOU. Please give me ur guidance. May I will always be under YOUR blessing.

Dont read this entry. Its dangerous

Some ppl just dont get it do they? I DONT WANT U AROUND DAMN IT!!! Yeah i meant u bitch!! Why must u stick ur nose in my business again and again?? Why are u always there? Why do you have to get involved in everything? Dont u have any other things to do? Cant u mind ur own damn fucking business? Cant u just leave me alone?????? Cant u bitch!!!??!?!?!?!?

Stop acting like a grown up already!! U r 22 for GOD sake!! Act like a 22 year old!!! Stop believing that u have to have a hand in everything!! Again.. u r just 22!! Its not like u are some kind of golden child or anything!!! U fucked up ur studies..goldigging ur parents so they can send u to fancy college in the city..and u even say u r from K.L!! Fuck off!! Dont forget ur roots bitch!! Dont think juz bcoz u r in some fancy and expensive college that u r good enuff to talk like that!! Its a private college la fucker!! Only stupid and rich Malays go there!! Since ur parents are not rich, then u r totally fucking stupid!! Please stop thinking that ur opinion matters in everything!! U r not uqalified yet bitch!!! FUCK U!!!!

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I am just not myself today. Fuck it, i didnt feel like myself at all this whole week. U know what bitch? This was suppose to be a special week for me. But u fucking ruin it. Was it ur fucking face? Or ur fucking annoying habit of getting involved in everything? Or maybe it was ur disturbing giggle eventho nothing remotely funny was going on? Or the fucking believe that everything happen must be circling around u? Fuck u bitch. I hate it when some bitch stole my thunder. Fuck.