Dear GOD..please give me strength to get through it all..please..

Happy Gomoing!!

Well it was truly the most energy-sapping 3 hours of my life. Eventhough the game was played at a level where Arsenal school boys would be ashamed of, I was totally proud by the effort of all the Selangor players. They worked their socks off, chased for every ball and produced quality when it matters most, although the 'quality' was never at the level that we used to see in other leagues.

Kudos though to both sets of fans who for me, made the game absolutely marvellous. You have to be there to feel it. The singing (by the way, other than 'gomo kelate gomo', the kelantanese were clueless), the chanting and also not to forget the ranting and provocating ( I love 'referee bodoh' and 'kesian die'- hillarious) really kept the atmosphere alive. Unfortunately, the level of football was really killing me. If not for the fans, the game would be a complete snore fest. As an avid football follower as I am, I was totally astonished at the ineptness of the Malaysian players. How can they call themselves professional players when they cant even trap the ball properly is beyond me. At one stage of the match, the ball kept bouncing endlessly without anyone able to take control of it. By the end of the normal time, I was ready to pack my bags and go home. However due to the strong Selangorness (is that even a word?) in me, I decided to fight trough the football pain show and stay until the end of extra time and all the way to penalties, where my home team came out on top ingloriously (you have to attend the game to understand it).

Whoever say that we, the fans, do not support local football can go and eat my stinking shoes. You have to understand the fans needs. We want crisp passing. We want under the bar shooting. We want proper tackling. We want quality. If the quality served to us was as bad as it was tonight, do you expect the fans will come flocking to the stadium? If the game tonight was not a final cup game, I wont dare stepping my foot inside the stadium. I wonder how some of the hardcore fans able to keep up with this. They must be the most passionate type of fans ever existed in the history of football.

To the gendang brothers, I salute you all.
To all the fans attended the game tonight, I take my hat off and salute you all.
To the Malaysian football players, buck up. We fans dont deserve this torture.

Congratulation to Selangor FC. The worthy winners of 2009 Malaysian FA Cup.
All together now.."Inilah barisan kita..yang ikhlas berjuang..siap sedia berkorban....SELANGOR!!SELANGOR!!SELANGOR!!"

O dear sun..please do shine again..

This has been the roughest patch I have ever encountered in my life. Its harder than everything that I have gone through before. It is like being dumped into a deep hole and suffocated to near death. At a time when stability counts for everything, I somehow trembled into one hell of a mess. I want to see the light please. Someone please show me the light. The darkness has smothered me entirely. Im suffocating. I am reaching out to anyone who can guide me. Please...

Im trying to conjure up all my energy to dig myself out of this mess. I shall continue fighting. I am destroying the word LOSE in my life vocab. I shall WIN. You cannot defeat me. I am tough!! You hear that!! I am fucking tough!! Come and get me if you dare!! I shall beat you down!! HUARGHHH!!!!!!

When the going gets tough??

Fuck Satyam. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. To anyone who are kind enough to read all my entries, please advise any of your friends/relatives to stay away from SATYAM COMPUTER SERVICES LTD. The management sucks, the HR sucks and they are officially the most fucked up company you ever gonna heard of. Stay away.

p/s : Fuck off Anirudh. Fuck you Rosnin. And most of all..FUCK YOU MANOHAR REDDY KONA. Dont think I cant see the evil and dirtiness behind those ugly smiles.

Arghhh!!!

Im fucking nervous. Must sharpen up all those learnings. Must re-remember the important stuff. One minor simple mistake would be hazardous. Help me..